My rollarcoaster relationship to rest & productivity

This year, my relationship to rest (or rather lack thereof of…) has really been brought to my attention and centered in my awareness. Even though I've really sat with and dug deeper into my aversion to rest (more appropriately naming it there), this is not an issue that started this year for me. It's a pattern of mine. A pattern of working very hard and long hours and of prioritizing my career and work before myself and what I need. 

I've been in my 9-to-5 job field for 7+ years and while I just founded Akashic Healing Sessions this year, I've been working in my Akashic Records about my relationship to rest - really this falls under my relationship to self - and my cosmic team reminded me that despite the "job" I'm working in, my pattern around working and believing that the only way I can keep moving up in the world is to work harder and harder recurring. Despite my specific job, I put my own rest and self-care, whatever that means to me that day, on the back burner along the way. That even though I'm so excited and lit up by the healing work I do with others in the Records and through Reiki, I'm repeating the same work, work, work, work, work pattern.

The Akashic Records have also shared over and over that the remainder of this year is very supportive of us, as individuals, to sit with integrating all the energy, shifts, and changes of this year - especially as we move into the Solstice on December 21st. My Records told me that my shifting relationships to rest, connection, and self-care are a huge part of the lessons I'm working through this year and a major piece of the energetic integration I need to prioritize before going into the next year.

And as I look back over this year, I see the patterns. I see the ups and downs of me giving, giving, giving so much of myself and energy until nothing was left in my own cup. 

I can see the ping-pong pattern of my being open to receiving rest preemptively vs. my pattern of shirking rest to my detriment until it was too late and I hit burn out. 

I can see where I prioritized myself vs. where I prioritized others - even when it was done in service to and with the intention of helping others.

And now I'm sitting with how I can change that pattern going into next year…

As my Records lovingly told me - this isn't a matter of if I need to change my pattern and relationship to rest, but when, for it is not sustainable in the direction I'm currently going. That I must shift to prioritizing myself, my own healing, connection, and Akashic Records practice, prioritizing spending time in nature to regenerate, finding my joy and care for myself every day. 

My Records couched this in terms of the work I've been doing to shift and release my limiting belief at the core of allllll of thissssss: if I rest and dare to block out time to rest, I can't go, go, go and do, do, do and be as productive as I think I need to be. 

My Records shared that I hold the energies of "rest" and "productivity" in opposition to each other as if they are only negatively correlated, connected, and related to one another. As if they're constantly in competition with one another.

SPOILER ALERT: they're not. It's not true. It's societal programming bullshit and lump sums of past lifetimes' limiting beliefs carried over energetically into this beautiful current life of mine. 

To quote my Akashic Records directly: 

"Remember you don't have to work harder to make more money. Work smarter. For you, working smarter means to rest, to incorporate rest. You have learned this about yourself this year. So how do you center rest knowing that when you rest, your business flourishes? 

This is your new belief: when you connect to yourself, your business flourishes. When you see yourself for all that you are, your business flourishes. When you rest, your business flourishes."

I am doing the damn work to shift and release this incredibly limiting belief. But that's just it - we have to keep doing the work and showing up to do the work to really root out what doesn't serve us so we can make energetic room to welcome the new supportive and nourishing belief in its place. 

And this limiting belief of mine did not spring up overnight and take hold of my relationship to productivity and rest - it's a pattern that's carried over from past lifetimes and been programmed within me again in this current reality and timeline. 

So even though I'm putting in the time to heal and release this (and have been since October), I don't expect it to root out overnight either. And I'm showing myself as much patience, grace, and compassion as I can, moving through this. This is, after all, a soul lesson I'm moving through and I've learned from my work in the Akashic Records that it takes time to move through lessons, to really learn what we're meant to and to incorporate that learning into our overall growth and soul expansion.

As I've been focusing on shifting my relationship to rest, a couple of days ago, my Akashic Records shared:

"For when you take care of you, you take care of the world.

For when you step into your light, your true light, you light up the world. 

For when you love yourself enough to give yourself the time you need to recharge, to connect back to yourself, to open yourself up to limitless possibilities in your life, you help the world do the same.

You help the world see it can be done, for if you, Emily, and others could do this more, the world would shift and change in ways that aren't imaginable…in the best ways".

Well damn! When they put in such a beautiful plug for rest in those terms, I'm going to receive it wholeheartedly instead of fighting it. 

I'm aware that if I'm moving through this lesson and shifting this limiting belief of mine, others probably are as well. Especially if you're a nurturer, healer, wellness practitioner, or someone whose services or products directly serve and help others - these messages from the Akashic Records are likely for you as well. In this type of work, our relationship between filling our own cups and filling the cups of others (who we feel very called, at our soul's core, to serve/help/heal/guide/take care of and more) is often out of balance. 

So I invite you, especially in the remaining weeks of this year when the energetics at play are just so, so supportive of this work, to examine your relationship to rest and productivity. I hope you come out of the other side of it knowing that you are just as worthy and deserving of having your own cup filled, always.

Sending you love wherever you're at with your relationship to rest. 

About Emily 

Emily Brown is the founder of Akashic Healing Sessions. She is an Akashic Records channel and reader and a certified Reiki Master and practitioner. She reads the Akashic Records and channels distance Reiki for clients all over the world. She does this work in service to others, knowing it's her purpose to help people connect back to their divine origins, to their power, and the healer within themselves.